I am at a stage in my life right now where I need to figure out my priorities and act upon those that are most important to me. I will use this post to help me figure out what those priorities are and what I should do.

List of things:

• Environment/Sustainability/Active Citizenship/Volunteerism
• Hercules
• Job
• Career/Life goals
• Sister
• Parents
• Close friends
• Friends I’d like to get to know better/Friends I’d like to rekindle ties with
• Bike/Biking
• Running
• Hiking
• Basketball
• Vegetarianism/Food
• Alternative Breaks
• Camp Kesem
• My living space/house/housemates
• Gardening
• Health (body)
• Preventative health (eyes, teeth)
• Relationships
• Art
• Learning

I have listed a bunch of things that I have thought about recently. 

REMINDER FOR NEXT POST: identify the top 5-10 most important ones or categorize these items and figure out if there’s anything I can do to improve this aspect of my life or if I am content.

HIV/AIDS Awareness Day

this video makes me want to stand up to my beliefs. i want to participate in a movement. i want to create change.

after a delicious meal at souplantation with ben and chance, i went to get gas in clairemont. and while i was pumping gas and cleaning my windows, i noticed a guy was at the pay phone. i was the only person at the station pumping at that time and in my head i was thinking “man, it would be crazy if that guy turned around and walks towards me and is a serial killer.”

the guy then turns around and starts walking towards me. he asked to borrow my phone. my head thinks “what if he just takes it and runs?” i gave him my phone and he made some calls and kept apologizing for causing trouble. i finished pumping gas and cleaning the windows and waited for him to finish and he asked if he could just make one more phone call and i just waited. the call didnt seem to go through. he handed the phone back to me and said thanks and went back to the pay phone and just sat there.

so i started driving away and i thought to myself “i would hate to be stranded at a gas station, but what if that guy turns out to be a criminal?” all the logic in my head tells me that this isn’t a good idea. i dont know this person. he’s a guy. it’s 10pm at a creepy gas station. he’s holding a suspicious bag. 

so i turn around, roll down the window and say “where do you need to go?” he says “old town” i have no idea where that is and i say “okay, i’ll give you a ride”

turns out, this guy’s name is Daniel. he got stranded cause Smart & Final asked him to work late and he missed the last bus. He needed to go to old town to take the trolley to go home. he works late cause he needs to pay for school which he is taking at sdcc and he’s studying anthropology. he wants to get into UCSD and be an anthropologist (which, he had trouble saying). his cousin’s phone broke last week and his house phone is disconnected. he would usually ride his bike, but his sister took it yesterday. this is his 4th time getting stranded. the other times, he had to walk home by himself. he’s gotten stranded at san ysidro, sea world, and sdsu. the walk from san ysidro to his home took him 4 hours. he really appreciated that i gave him the ride.

and i am really glad i gave him the ride.

I came across a post by a 17yo guy who thought at age 17, it was time to start conquering his fears. And he listed several of his such as babies, birds, and spiders and ways he plans on overcoming such fears.

So, this will be a post about me and my 22yo fears

why is that that i always feel artistically inspired in the middle of the night?

i’ll tell you why—it’s only during those times do i have the silence and time to browse the internet and look at things that i like, which is usually art-related. and it is only during those times when i can forget about the real world and fantasize about things that i wish i could do.

unfortunately, once daylight seeps through the blinds, i’m back in my shared bedroom in a dirty condo and reality hits. (that was my attempt at some poetic writing) and with my unmotivated self, its hard for me to really do anything.

GOAL: find a passion and commit to it

Well hello there! this is my first tumblr post (inspired by lisa) and i’d like to reflect on the past year so i can get ready for a new one! (i know its not new years, but who’s to say my year can’t start tomorrow?) The things that stand out to me right now are:

1. Hercules!!! He is a black dog of unknown breed and he’s been amazing :) He just got neutered yesterday. We hoped that he would calm down after his balls get chopped, but our hope dissipated today when he continued to bark and run around. this picture was taken on christmas day 2009
2. Camp Kesem - grown to love it then grew to hate it, but still love it. ahh.. it’s so hard to describe
3. Megan - my sister bought a little place down at mission valley. and i realize that we have a lot in common. weird. oh and every time i go over to her place, she inspires me to do projects and be organized. but then i come back to my place and realize its too big and living with other dogs and irresponsible people is a big pain and that clogs my inspiration.
4. Death - experienced my first death in in the family. love you grandma!
5. School/Debt - i’m not fit for school, and as long as i’m enrolled, i’ll have money problems. vicious cycle.

overall, this past year has been such a learning experience for me. i’ve gotten a taste of reality and it’s bitter. but it gets better whenever i get a bit of sweetness and kikkoman soysauce every once in a while. what can you do—it’s reality :D

baby hercules! this was back in september when he didn’t bark so much :)